Have you ever looked up your name to see what it means? I looked this up years ago and it made me chuckle. I’ve known that I wanted to be a counselor of some sort since I was in the 10th grade. I was always helping people and giving sound advice and I loved it. Come to find out, the name Monica means advisor, wise one, or counselor depending on which website you look on. I even give that little tidbit of information when I go on interviews so they’ll remember me better. I enjoy getting to know people and seeing how I can be of service to them in all ways, whether with friends or on a specific job. It’s my calling and purpose in life.
A lot of people search for their purpose in life so they can figure in which direction they need to go. Due to my religious background, I figured out my spiritual gift is encouragement. The term Exhorter is specifically used, as well as the gifts of Mercy/Compassion. But lately, I’ve been depleted and my compassion fatigue is at an all time low. I’ve been going through some transitional periods and just feeling like a big change is needed. I’ve moved to a new city to start what I’m deeming as my “fourth life.” And I still feel like something is off. I’ve been praying and asking God to reveal to me what needs to be done and still waiting for clarity. You get to a point where you ask, “God are you listening to me?” It’s a tough phase.
I have grown to ask myself lately, am I listening to God. That’s the real question and you have to be very honest with yourself so you can make wise decisions and experience greater. I’ve been toiling over my career decisions for months now, and I think that it’s time to use my skills in a new setting. My job is very taxing (and often off topic of counseling) and I’ve been looking for different ways to use my current skill set and still encourage people. It just comes so naturally and I think I want to start vlogging. It’s been on my mind heavily and even though I’m not leaving my job, I want to feel more of a service than what my job is affording me.
When something is weighing on your heart heavily, it’s good to explore its possibilities to see if that’s what direction God wants you to go. I’ve always felt compelled to share words of encouragement on a big platform. Maybe that’s what God is putting back on my heart because I feel greater is coming. Either way, I’m going to keep my spiritual eyes and ears open to receive what the Lord has for me to do. I always pray that He orders my steps, but I need to be willing to walk in His way. Keep praying for me to be the hands and feet of Jesus and operate in love with a soft heart. And watch out for me and my vlogging really soon. Be sweet.
Be Sweet 