I feel defeated most days. It’s like 2020 is winning and I’m losing. And by losing, I mean it’s punched me in the face, given me a wedgy, and stuck my head in a toilet. Dramatic, yes. Accurate, even more so. I’m going to be very transparent (one of the words that describes me best) in this blog mainly because I know I’m not the only one feeling this way. I know my testimony can help others who are going through. Have you ever felt like God was testing you, and you were failing miserably? My attitude is bad, my mouth is smart, my thoughts aren’t good, and I’m just not myself lately. Lord, I need a fresh wind.
I’ve come to the conclusion that my sanity hangs in the balance of my positivity. I’ve been letting my thoughts run rapid. Today, I refused to let that happen! I did A LOT of thought stopping, which basically means when I had a bad thought, I’d refocus my thoughts. After months of having a WILD mind, it was very hard. Today consisted of many “Monica, stop” and “Lord, I’m sorry” thoughts. It’s like the devil sitting on one shoulder and the angel on the other. I’m proud to say that the angel won. I need to get my life back together. For goodness sake, I’m a child of THE MOST HIGH GOD.
I’m sure many of us need a fresh wind, to regroup, and remember our purpose. We set out goals for this year, and most of them are still attainable. And if it’s not, come up with a strategy that will get you as close as possible. We got time! It’s not like we can go too many places and are so busy. Let’s get back on track and set the devil straight. He don’t run NOTHING! We need to get in war mode because this year is hitting hard, but we have to hit back. I need you to dig deep to the depths of your soul and declare with me right now that we will prevail. Open your mouth and say we’ve already won!!!