You ever just sit and think about life and how you’re more than ready for a change? I saw a post that asked a very thought provoking question: If life ended today, what would you regret not doing? The scary answer was A LOT. The reason this question hit me like a ton of bricks is because I have a very specific goal in my mind that I have been thinking about for the majority of this year. In fact, I have been stuck on this one goal for the last 4 years on and off. I recently decided that I owe myself this leap to show myself that I am strong enough to survive it. The thing is, I’m stuck between waiting patiently because I have done some work towards it, or go full force in making things happen and trust that God will see me through.
It’s confusing when you want something so bad and everything becomes a sign. I have seen some signs that scream wait patiently on God and I have seen others yell faith without work is dead. I am almost at the point of pulling my hair out because I have no clue what to do! I clearly realize that some efforts have to be put forth, but I understand that jumping the gun can be detrimental. I feel ready, but I do believe my fear is holding me back. Maybe I just answered my own question while typing at this very moment. We usually allow fear to stifle progress. I don’t want to end up being that person, especially when I’m so needing something new.
My goal is to relocate, specifically to the West coast. I try not to put God in a box, so I am always up for whatever He wants for me. I have definitely realized that my choices aren’t always the best, so keeping it open to relocation period is best. But I have had my eye on a specific place for the past 4 years, so I really think that God wouldn’t have placed it on my heart so heavily if that wasn’t a good decision. I wake up thinking about it and go to sleep thinking about it. I just want to ensure that I am going to make a decision that will help me go to the next level in life and increase my career opportunities. I do think I second guess myself and that has held me back in life, so I need to stop. I’m desperate for a change at this point in life, so maybe making moves is the game winning play. Keep me in your prayers.