I have been known to be a little too honest to the point where it’s almost incriminating of myself. But with that, no one ever has to wonder what I’m feeling because I’m very open. Lately, my mind has been preoccupied by the past. After much thought, I have come to the conclusion that the past needs to stay there. I have had writer’s block for allowing a negative entity back into my life. Obviously I won’t name any names, but if that person just so happens to come across this blog, they will know that it’s about them. Oh well! Anyway, I couldn’t figure what to write about, so I’m writing the full out truth. Hopefully it will be the cure and words will flow thereafter.
When I blocked this person, God seemed to unblock my mind. And now I’m having the best of times writing, which is something that I love to do. That is confirmation that having negative company can really take a toll on your life. I always have the belief that people can change. The thing is, they have to want to change. This particular person did just enough sweet talking to lure me back in, but there’s only so much covering up you can do before the real person comes out. And that is what happened, the asshole in this person reared its ugly head and that was it for me. I should have never entertained the foolishness in the beginning, but a part in me hoped that they had made a turn around. Boy was I wrong. I almost consider this occurrence a test to see if I was ready to move forward and to a higher level, or was I going to stay stuck living in the past. Thank God I passed that test!
I recently saw a meme that said that you can’t start the new chapter of your life while re-reading the old ones. Although I would rather throw that whole chapter away, it has shaped me into the person that I am today. Through the bad treatment, heartaches, and tears, I have still remained the caring and kind woman that I have always been. You can’t let negative people make you have a hard heart. If you do, negativity has won, and I just refuse to let that happen. Sometimes you just have to forgive people and move on, whether you get an apology or not. I will say that going forward, I will TRY not allow the past to throw me off again. I was very out of whack because I like to think the best of people, but some people haven’t arrived to that point in their lives. I will continue to pray for them and go on with my life. Be Sweet.