I remember the last time I truly set my mind to do something against the grain was back in 2014. I decided that if I was going to graduate on time, I had to quit my job and put in more hours at my internship site. Why would you do that? How are you going to pay your bills? Why why why? That’s all I heard back then and it’s all I hear now that I’ve decided to move to Los Angeles. I’m an honest enough person to say my last two blogs were written out of anger and frustration. But this post is coming from a place of PEACE.
When I quit my job back in 2014 to accomplish a goal, everything worked out. I had enough money to hold me over until the program was over. My dream came to fruition because I didn’t give up and I didn’t let the naysayers pull me down. You see, I have been babied all of my life. I’ve never really been extremely on my own. And while I appreciate my parents, I realize that kind of living has been a crutch. I can honestly say that at the age of 33, I’m ready to get out into the real world and see things for myself. Get past Memphis city limits and limits in general.
I love traveling and it’s opened my eyes to the possibilities of this big world. When I was younger, I wanted to move to New York City. Can you believe that my first time going there was last year? I cried at the beautiful sights of the city. But when I went to Los Angeles, it wasn’t an emotional thing, it was more of an enlightenment or a beckoning. I’ve been 3 times in the last 2 years and each time was more of an invitation to my future than awe of bright city lights. I knew it was calling my name. I answered! How could I not see what all was in store for me in a city with more opportunities?
Today’s sermon was just for me. Bishop stated that when you have a made up mind, you’ll make a change. I’ve been living a life that’s not meant for me in lack. I know God doesn’t want that for me and I surely don’t want that for myself. I have the abilities and talents that can allow me to live in abundance. Only I can make that decision to make a move towards change. And the fact of the matter is that whether I make a good or wrong decision, I will be the one living with the consequences. That is why this will be my last post in explaining MY decision! I have come to the conclusion that I am a very motivating person. In that, I expect me out of others and that is where I go wrong every time. I have high expectations for others and that doesn’t always end well for me. But I will say that I have peace now that I have been truthful with myself about the situation. That is truly all that matters, I have peace. Be Sweet.
“And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Chist Jesus.” Philippians 4:7